"LOVE" ....
There is no other word that better encompasses the 84 years spent on this earth by my grandmother Betty Jo (Stephens) Odell. She moved in love like it was a dance she had always known. She spoke with such warmth in her tone when she would recall her childhood. Though by all other accounts a very rough one, growing up in a one room home with her siblings. She spoke of the warmth of love they shared. How she loved her own mama and her "daddy" as she affectionately called him.
Oh, how I adored her stories of home as a child and I shared her love of "Little House on the Prairie" as a young girl. She always said it reminded her of home.
She showed me how to love. Oh, how she loved my Grandpa. They shared 62 years together as she proudly recalled even as she was sick in the hospital her last days. Their love for each other clearly still evident in the way he spoke to her and looked at her. Grandma always told me love was not always easy but so worth the fight.
Her boys were her heart! She wore them like a proud badge of joy! She was so very proud of their relationship with each other and how much they cared for one another. She was so proud of all they had accomplished. I could see her memories as she watched my boys play together as she would always revert back to when hers were little. Her words of wisdom, "Honey, you just rock those babies. All the chores can wait."
She adored all her grandchildren and great grandchildren. As she would always give me a new number after another was added by either marriage or birth. Her cup was overflowing.
She was the picture of country hospitality. It was never uncommon that friends and neighbors would stop by at all hours of the day or night to visit. She would always usher them in for a cup of coffee or glass of tea and conversation. Oh, how she loved to talk. But not just surface talk, she loved to get right to your heart. Empathy was second nature to her. She hurt with those who hurt and rejoiced with those who rejoiced.
Anyone who knew my grandmother, knew exactly where she learned to love. The name of Jesus moved across her lips as easily as the oxygen she breathed. She loved Him passionately and intimately. My very favorite moments spent with her were setting with her on her back patio early in the morning while she read her Bible. We would talk about how sweet Jesus is and how much He loves us. She taught me the beauty of being still before Him and listening to His voice.
Its through her guidance I observed how to savor the moments of life. Moments like sunrises, the sound of crickets in the morning and locusts at night, and a good cup of coffee! And how to express gratitude to our Lord for those sweet, simple pleasures that ultimately are everything.
But her greatest joy was speaking of Heaven and meeting her Savior. Her last days on earth were spent sharing Jesus love. She told me from her hospital bed that she'd been telling everyone she would meet about Jesus. She said, "Maybe that's why I'm here..." Grandma that is exactly why you were here. Here on earth, to be His vessel of love. His artist.
She painted the most beautiful tapestry of love and life into every heart she touched.
I had the great privilege to be a part of the miracle of her life for 35 years. I am who I am because she allowed the Love of Jesus to change her and flow like a rushing river through her. I sang hymns to her during her last days, my great honor to sing her home!
But when she went, I did not realize a piece of my heart would go with her! Guard that piece until we meet again Grandma!
"And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:13
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Sunday, August 7, 2016
Pride and Perfection
Disclaimer: This one is going to sting like hell....
Growing up as a "Christian" has always been a joy of mine! I accepted Christ as my Savior at the age of 10. I learned very early how to walk with Him. However...I also learned very early how to efficiently judge others without considering myself "judgemental"! I also learned how to feed my pride without being "prideful"! And how to behave "perfectly" so I would receive the approval of others, without "striving to please others!"
I place the blame on no one other than the Enemy. He would lead me to believe that "Perfection" is attainable. That I was such a good "Christian" that I was beyond sin's grasp.... All a LIE!
NO ONE is BEYOND the Grasp of Sin.... Because... NEWS FLASH! WE ARE ALL HUMAN BEINGS that Christ had to die for!!!
I am reminded of the story of the rich young ruler. You remember the story? He came to Jesus asking what he must do to have eternal life? He called Jesus, "Good teacher". To which Jesus asked "Why do you call me good?" "No one is good except God alone." (NEWS FLASH.... If Jesus said this about Himself how much more should we understand we are not "good" only God in us is
"good.")
Jesus replied to him that he must know all the commandments and must follow them. The ruler was quick to answer.. "All these I have kept since I was a boy." Jesus then said he lacked one thing. He told him to go sell everything he had and follow him. The guy couldn't do it!
I used to think, man what a bummer this guy gave it all up for his stuff... tisk, tisk! Then it struck me, it wasn't necessarily his stuff..... It was his pride!!!
Jesus told him he was not good enough on his own.. And the ruler could not take it! I mean this guy had all his crap together... Of course he should have qualified as a "Christian" with a sterling reputation. He followed all the rules, he probably only hung out with "Christian" friends, I'm sure he attended every Bible Study available, he used all the "Christian" words. He did everything right. But PRIDE would keep him from attaining all the Father had for him. He couldn't even see it!
It's me! It's a SMACK right in the face. The PRIDE must FALL!! And He will bring us all to a place out of His great LOVE for us that it finally will! I can promise you one thing. When it happens it will sting like HELL! Like an open wound that alcohol is poured over to disinfect.
But the disinfection has to happen. And the most beautiful part is that Christ wants our entire heart. Not just the pretty sparkly parts we hold out for others to see, but the dark parts that make us grimace when faced with the light. The parts that hurt when pushed on. The parts we want NO ONE to see! He already sees it all. He's just waiting for each of us to willingly hold up our hearts to Him!
When we do, when we bring those dark, ugly parts to the light. The ENEMY LOSES!!! Because we are already victorious!!!
"Pride brings a person low, but the lowly gain honor." Proverbs 29:23
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