Kaleidoscope

Kaleidoscope

I hadn't thought of that word since I was a child. Children today would be completely bored out of their minds with a toy that kept me entertained when I was little for longer than I probably should admit. I loved seeing the twirling colors move in and out like synchronized swimmers at my fingertips. I'm sure my son would look at me like I was crazy if I suggested this over playing a game on my phone!

Recently, God showed me how my life is like a kaleidoscope; ever fluid, ever changing. All with just a twist here and there. We often move one direction then the next. For the longest time I have been so concerned about finding my one singular purpose! I would get anxious when I would feel drawn to a particular ministry, career, hobby, etc. I knew I heard God clearly so I would try to figure out how I would give up what I had in order to follow a new singular passion.

For example, before my first son was born I was just so distraught that my calling was now a mother and I did not need to work. I needed to follow my divine purpose. But God has met me with so much grace. Grace that my life can be fragmented, departmentalized, and yet so fluid and beautiful. So much grace for my heart to understand that He is the author of our Freedom not our own mental strongholds that keep us captive. He allows me to do everything with passion!

I was held back from dancing in the fluid motion of my life by thinking I had to live in a neat and tidy box. I had to define myself as a "wife", "mother", "pharmaceutical sales rep", "author", "minister"! But I am not any single one of those titles. I am all of them, dancing in beautiful fluidity of amazing color! I am a child of my Father! And everything He has given me to do and become is for His glory and for the JOY of both!

Let's not get so focused on where we are going that we miss the beautiful show that is our life!

"Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all for the glory of God."
1 Corinthians 10:31 NKJV